legendfest's journal

final

2005-07-18T17:28:43Z

im sorry to report this but i am going to switch over and start using my blog via myspace account. in my profile you will see a thing that will state my blog and from there you can read a journal entry i will put out every so often. but im sorta killing 2 birds with 1 stone by usuing my blog thru myspace. hope im not breaking any hearts and if so im sorry, my blog is the same thing i promise.

no mas

2005-07-18T00:17:01Z

no more drunk, stupid text messages people, i hate them and i could barely usually understand what you send.dont tell me you love me and shit also and do something totally different. im finally happy without you both so deal with it. both of you can go on and have a nice life without me in it. leave me be. later all.

such a long time

2005-07-14T21:52:21Z

i know its been such a long time. in past 2 weeks a quick wrap up, fourth of july was alot of fun, been working like 60 hrs a week, missing out on tons of sleep, been hanging out with friends. went to chili's, david busters, and bruxelles with a few people from work. i dont know why but im not going go into more detail cause i have to take a nap. im also probobly going start using myspace, blog instead of livejournal cause i realized everyone seems to read that more then my livejournal. its just a possibility. hope you all are good, take care for now.

hiphip horray

2005-07-05T22:36:22Z

yes i have finally done it and got rid of all the bad things and demands i have had that hurt me in the past. everyone should be happy with me. and a final farewell to those bad things. only good things too come

this aint fair

2005-06-30T14:25:33Z

it seems like everyone i know is taking a vacation somewhere while i work my ass off, true mommy and daddy are paying or going with them but it still kinda sucks, let me tell you. with nearly 50hrs of work in the next 4 days ahead of me, i realize even more then my last entry that i need a vacation. ashley is going to ohio, one person is going to north carolina, mike is going to virginia beach, dan took a permanent vacation, a few girls im friends with are going to acapulco, alot of people are going to cancun and im goin stay in ny and work till i die. anyway no more bitching, past few days were alright. i had work and went out last night to bruxelles,with mitch, doug, kristen, elberg and saw a few people i knew and then jon and novak came so that was awesome, and finally 2 of mitches friends. it was alright there but no real hot girls. ok im done venting now.im out.

spread the love

2005-06-29T21:48:35Z

just saying hello to you all.

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

2005-06-27T16:01:54Z

thats correct. all i want is a day off from work where my sister, mother or both of them arent here. i think this really means either i need to move out or just kick them out. i like the kicking them out idea better. give me until like 5pm 1 day that im off from work without one or both of them here and ill be happy as hell. im not going to comment on some one's journal entry cause im not immature like that. anyway last night after i got done with frank phillips bullcrap party, we still hate you frank. only good thing was he left early and so did his guests. well then last night i met up with doug, allysa, danielle and allison at fridays for allisons 21st bday. some guy also met us there but i couldnt remember.it was a calm 21st bday but still good cause i havent hung with allie or her friends in quite sometime. happy 21st bday again to my other sister. anyway im off today and going to avoid my sis and mom out doing some errands. i love morning sexy text messages. bye

florida

2005-06-26T04:06:58Z

yes i need a week to florida.im goign to visit carrie and kelly, my friend scott and debbie and of coarse ashley and whoever else that comes along. i realized this after i realized how much i miss all of these people and towards the end of the year florida is the nicest place to be in when decmber hits. today at work mike told me when he went to go meet the people he got another standing ovation and during our vienese table( a dessert table which is very expensive) the people were telling me, mike, bobby, castillo,jon, mary, frank and everyone else who has a station on there what a great job they did and how great of a job the chefs did. no tip but the compliments are always welcomed. so this week after 4 partys, last week 8, and this coming week another 8 im a little tired and need a day off. tomorow is going be cool cause it is a bbq which isnt like chicken, sausage peppers burgers and hot dogs. this one we do 2 times a year for frank phillips( scum of stony point and of patriot hills golf club) thorws a golf tournament finished by an amazing dinner. i cant wait to have a steak with a baked potato and bbq chicken. i have been waiting all week for that. im also happy cause colleen is back at work. last yr i saw her all the time and we became good friends and i hate it when i know she should be there working but isnt. i hope colleen to see you alot more there again, you fucking rock. anyway i have to be at work at 8am ill try to update you all soon, later. time for a call to someone. also happy 21st bday to allison.

blah

2005-06-23T02:53:14Z

i dont no i didnt feel like lyself at work, and i was upset over some dumb shit all day. i workecd from 10am-10pm but somehow im very tired, probobly the heat from the bbq we had at work just did me in. it just seemd like everything people did just really got under my skin and it wasnt cool. i realize i do work with some dumb people at work as well. it is common sense for some and none for others. im not mentioning names. im hoping tomorow to finally go see star wars, anyone that wants to go is more then welcome besides that i have a california kitchen pizza waiting for me. take it in the ass pricks.just kidding.

Wake Me Up When September Ends

2005-06-20T02:36:59Z

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends

Like my father's come to pass
Seven years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends

Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars

Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are

As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost

Wake me up when Septmber ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when Septmber ends

Ring out the bells again
Like we did when spring began

Wake me up when septmber ends

Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars

Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are

As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost

Wake me up when septmber ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when Septmber ends

Like my father's come to pass
Twenty years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends

Wake me up when September ends
Wake me up when September ends

p.s.-graduation was good, dani is no longer a shs student, college is in 68 days and i cant wait. love you dad and i hope everyone else's father a happy fathers day

its been awhile

2005-06-19T06:20:47Z

well here it goes, simply like always i have been working non-stop. only reason i even have off tomorow from work is cause its dani's graduation. its going be hard on all cause it is fathers day also but im sure we will survive. only good part bout working my ass off is definetly seeing those beautiful paychecks. that usually turn into bill payments. sorry that i havent talked to anyone in a while i have been super busy. i now need a seat cover cause i got brown sauce all over it and so no one that sits shotgun wont get themselves dirty unless this resolve stuff actually works. well sorry its short, but true and everyone good luck tomorow with bobby's exheadchef's daughters wedding. it is going be an amazing wedding everyone let me know how it goes. sianara. thats for my chinese out there, i told u i would do that liz.

so you wnat an update

2005-06-14T04:28:47Z

well past week i worked everyday since tuesday of last week with a party every day from thursday to saturday, had sunday off where i slept all day and hung with mitch and went for dinner and then went to anthony's house and played some poker with mitch, me, ziad, corey, carlos, anthony, jay,young and elberg. had a good time dont hang with them much so it was cool. today i had a bullshit party as well as tomorow which means they r easy partys for like 50 people. kinda sucks but hey i got to pay the bills somehow and then i have a party everyday from tomorow until june 28th. i will be super busy with work except for sunday when im off to go to my sisters graduation. she has been a real pain in the ass recently. my mom and me have a countdown for the day she leaves and the day we plan on changing the locks. i thought i was a psycho she tops the cake. allison knows and is upset as well as her friend sim not goin to senior prom. im not a perv, she is a watress where i work and her 3 friends that try to convince me are wait staff to. if i was 19 or maybe even 20 i would of said sure but im 22 soon 23, ill pass on that high school crap. so in a recap i been full of work, sleep and nothing inbetween. its been so bad i missed out on atlantic city with my friends friday night, or even getting invited during the week to do something or go somewhere,i see now more and more how different our schedules are and how we are growing up but i still wish that i had schedules more like theres so i could have all the fun it seems that they are having. i just found out also my next friday or saturday off is the 2nd weekend in november. damn thats a long time away. ehh its apart of the business. on a sad note i realize, my 2nd least favorite day of the year is coming up and it hurts only thing that is good is that dani graduates and is 1 step closer to college on the same day. anyway im out,later.

colleen

2005-06-12T21:17:04Z

colleen i thought that the journal entry below will be deeply appriciated by you i hope no one else took it out of content

prom

2005-06-12T05:57:31Z

with my sisters graduation, prom and me workign every day for the past 5 and the next 7 making it 12 days straight i was asked by a friend from work to go to her senior prom. sorry hun but the answer is no. yes we might be hanging out right now but the answer is no. im too old for that shit anyway. allison read it and dont give me those eyes at the back of your head like you always do. i made this so she can read it now, with me and later at home. anyway going drive her home. later on bitches

perfect sence

2005-06-10T14:48:42Z

there is a song that goes with everything, from the way you feel to what you are doing. trying to find one right now that makes this situation feel best but actually am having trouble. anyway i got some nice days of work ahead ofme, and chillin with jess hopefully on sunday. i havent talked to her in a while. going call jeremy back now after i sorta snapped on him at work and someone else who i keep forgetting to call back. aiight 1

close to me

2005-06-09T15:21:32Z

close to me. everything will be better and then long distance wont be a problem at all. i hate it and i hate fighting with people that i cant just go up to and give a hug to and let them forgive me. if i stay in ny my whole life it will really surpise me at this point.i am in need of a change of address. i dont no where but it has to happen soon. only thing holding me back right now is my friends and job. friends slowly but shorly are moving away so i guess its a bigger part of my job. i might just have to run a place my boss owns outside of this area for a change and then everything will be good. what am i to do. anyway this isnt morose at all just letting off some things on my mind since everyone knows i hold everything in, which might not be good buts its been like that since i am 12 and it is very hard to change these things. out to work.

less then 2 weeks

2005-06-08T23:48:16Z

"Where Is The Love?"

What's wrong with the world, mama
People livin' like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin'
In the USA, the big CIA
The Bloods and The Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah
Madness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how anger works and operates
Man, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

It just ain't the same, always unchanged
New days are strange, is the world insane
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don't belong
Nations droppin' bombs
Chemical gasses fillin' lungs of little ones
With ongoin' sufferin' as the youth die young
So ask yourself is the lovin' really gone
So I could ask myself really what is goin' wrong
In this world that we livin' in people keep on givin'
in
Makin' wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respectin' each other, deny thy brother
A war is goin' on but the reason's undercover
The truth is kept secret, it's swept under the rug
If you never know truth then you never know love
Where's the love, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the truth, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the love, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm gettin' older, y'all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin'
Selfishness got us followin' our wrong direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids wanna act like what they see in the cinema
Yo', whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead in spreading love we spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
Gotta keep my faith alive till love is found

Now ask yourself
Where is the love?
Where is the love?
Where is the love?
Where is the love?

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)

jess

2005-06-07T21:54:42Z

everyone lets hope for the best, 1 of the girls i use to watch gilmore girls with every tuesday night for 2 years, jessica and me are hanging out. i hope i dont jump on top of her and do the nasty. jk.im so excited. i hope that these plans go thru its been like a year since we chilled and she only lives like 30 mins away. thats bad on both our parts but im so stoked for this. sunday should be a great day.anyway back to pti. bye.

the time is now

2005-06-05T06:27:58Z

yeah so after talkin to someone it got me having doubts about some stuff going on in my life, thanks alot asshole. then makes it worse is that my friend amanda totally agrees. so that also got me very upset and thinking bout the past and seeing if there can be a future or even a present on some topics that we were talking about. mostly dealing with myself and a few past girls or girlfriends. kinda like a round robin till we found a girl from the past that might actually be up to amanda, and the other asshole's standards. i wasnt the hugest fan of this one but ill let it stand for now. today i sweated my ass of at work. the kitchen was never so freaking hot before in my life. i felt like a typical phil tisi or something on those lines. well last night we had an interesting wedding with a bunch of drunk, stupid, drugged up people who were led by the groom being hoisted up on his best friends shoulders starting a strip tease and leading to the firealarm going off. colleen if u were there i could totally see u telling me all about this instead i got it from jon, mary, kim and i think ricaberto. today we had a sweet16 and had some rich asses. the moms were the typical nose in the air and plastic surgery kinda ladies with the fathers in polo shirts talking business followed by a normal everyday type of wedding this evening. im looking forward to a good time tomorow since im off 2 days in a row yes sunday and monday 1st time in nearly 5 months i have 2 consecutive days off from work. i do however have brent, who is brads brothers graduation party im going to which is should be fun and it will be cool to see where he goes in the mlb draft. i am looking forward to the party and draft for him and for everyone else, should be a great time. dani graduates on the 19th very soon. after that it is like 63 days till rutgers university has her for atleast 4 years and the locks get changed. during the week i had some fun with sorta a light schedule of work this past week, only 52 hrs. im outta here talk to you soon, going play around on myspace. if u have it great if not go get it, peace.6, civi will get that.

true colors2-

2005-06-02T22:41:24Z

yeah things that happened in my past, the good, the bad, the ugly and everything in between. it also got me thinking cause fathers day is coming up but this year i cant be upset like usual since i lost my dadcause my sister dani is graduating high school and then its 68 more days to rutgers university in nj. i cant wait talk to you all later.

true colors

2005-06-02T22:39:09Z

You with the sad eyes
Don't be discouraged
Oh I realize
It's hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
And the darkness inside you
Can make you feel so small

But I see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

Show me a smile then,
Don't be unhappy, can't remember
When I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I'll be there

And I'll see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

u wanted it so here it goes

2005-05-30T19:50:37Z

between our fighting, bitching, loving, making out and what not we are ok right now with each other. p.s. im glad to we got to talk. after months of us being hot or cold, love or hate, south or north, bottom to top for the time being we are ok. id realize either we r marrying each other, or going to kill each other or let 1 lead to the other. i love this weather but this white thing and me dont mix, ttyl. time to beerbeque it up.

no sleep till

2005-05-26T11:56:38Z

yup you got that correct, i think i got a grand total of 90 mins of sleep cause i was up all night thinking. i have alot going on in my life right now but there is just 1 thing missing. the 1 thing missing is what actually kept me up all night cause after a few bad decisions on my part and parts on her in the past, im not actually talking to someone right now. yes i might say i want her out of my life but i always seem to get her back in and it is weird cause this time the tables are turned and she has to be more of a hardass then I ever was where she is blocking me and deleting messages and all. i told this to my friend mark and he says that this just wasnt meant to be and i guess i have to go with it. he then reminded me of everything that i have going on for me and maybe this girl just isnt in your mix of things going on and its better to move on now then maybe finding out to late. he sayes i should just let her ignore me and not make contact and do what she is doing because if she cares anybit at all she will be back. he also thinks she has someone in her life cause she has been known to have someone she is trying and hopin to be with and not telling me and getting me mad, this time the tables are turned and she doesnt like it and is going avoid you until 1 of 2 things happen. she finds a new man and totally moves on from me or she is goin to try to steal you from this other girl. anyway enough of my raving i have to be at work in an hr. im goin get ready and go on with my day. i will let you all know how it goes,thanks marc you are my buddy forlife.

head chef before i no it

2005-05-26T03:17:29Z

the last thing i needed to learn how to do was make sauces at my job. today we had a buffet for the golf outing. i already knew penne ala vodka sauce but needed a chassier for chicken, jd sauce for beef, and a creme sauce for fish. with some help when i needed it from either bobby or mike i was able to make them. i was very very proud of myself. then i heard that your finally becoming closer and closer to becoming a head chef. a prediction i heard is by the time im 26-30 i can possibly be up for a head chef job. wow can you imagine it. 1 of my many dreams finally coming true. thats all good and what not but the thing im upset about is how and what i said about a certain someone past few days. it was really fucked up on my part and I AM SORRY, thats no way for me to treat someone i really do care about after all this time. if u except my apology or not thats something i will deal with for the time being and beyond. this weekend is going to be a little hectic with a party for old bags tomorow from 12-4, then prep for the wedding on friday,saturday and sunday but in goodnews i have monday off and it doesnt seem like foxwoods and spikes is going to happen so we are hoping for a bbq at someone's house. I BBQ FOR GOLFER OUTINGS from MAY-SEPTEMBER if we are only making burgers and hotdogs and such I AM NOT COOKING. i will COOK STEAKS and SUCH and THATS IT.tonight after work i went with mitch and doug for dinner and ended up going to on the border, a mexican place so you know where im going to be heading every hr and get no sleep. again IM Sorry to who i hurt and im very proud of you and your new possible career find. i truely hope to read some of your stuff. im going to bed, night fruits

shake that ass

2005-05-24T04:12:20Z

yup. so i had a long day of work. its a regular thing for me these days but i do however have next monday, memorial day off. doug made mention of possibly hitting up foxwoods which would be cool and then maybe get some spikes. if more people are down to go let me know, if not ill deal with it. so this week monday, wednesday- sunday i have or will be working about 12 hrs day so i will be very exhausted and by monday if we go definetly need a trip away for a day. the best part is i get paid that sweet overtime after my 40 hrs which it will be on pace to be friday midday. well today i thru my 1st ever party where only thing i didnt do was make the sauces. kinda hard to make tomato sauce, jk. anyone can do that. and i used the left over stock and sauces for the other 2 meals i needed them for. on a sadder note i have gotten in the mother of all fights with someone, yet again.this time i am completely done with her. no more chances and such. completely done. last week i had a party where a former worker, marty,(colleen he sayes hello)and joey matrone and whole family went to.i think it was for his cousin. this wedding the people went 100% out and nearly spent 185 per person, times that by 215 people. thats alot of money with all the extra's you can get, well they got it and tipped very nice. 1st time i gotten a tip from a guest themselves, mr benjamin will go straight to johnson and wales and pay 2 of the 4 loans i pay off.i like mitch's idea bout the whole hokka bar thing, dont know just ask him for more details. well it is my turn to call ashley, so im going to do just that.baby im amazed by you, different girl same meaning. later folks